Wednesday, November 30, 2011' 11:08 AM
Human is very realistic.. when you get involve with shit thing, yes you get back all the shit you got.
in a relationship that's no right or wrong. trust or don't.
what i believe in came in your blood. you see, you learn.. get it anot only when you learn a lesson.
Heart breaking -when you feel heart breaking. it's just a feeling that's all.
just control it. don't ever feel it.
lonely-
when ever you felt lonely. either make yourself busy or just emo.
emotional-
sometimes i just hate myself born in the july.
emo myself when ever im home. lucky i have oreo.
dog can relief your stress for you..
home is not my favorite after all..
but still.. i just cant control my emotional at all.
very minor thing can just affect my emotional.
even just a friend are sad they share things with me i can felt it.
i'm always hot and cold 5min - 5min
Relationship -
i'm suck at relationship. my jealousy is too strong. always frighten who ever i''ve be with.
i just can't control.
Jealousy -
this is the worst part and the hard on another hand..
when ever i got jealous i get woke up easily.
i can lost anyone. i just don't care at all..
till when i cool it down. i start to regret what have i done to myself?
Too caring -
sometimes i'm just too caring for my friends.. then it will make my current girl friend get jealous.
but i don''t no why i'm like this. is born in me. not i want it to..
things get better when my friend is alright.
Work-
alway put my work in the 2st place. sometimes what i get back is just a little reward.
no matter what at least i've try my best.
Home-
always do some hidden thing at home. but i always feel safe at home. no matter what he complain i'll still do it for you. no matter how rude im to you still i love you with all my heart.
Love & Care-
sometimes i just want a simple relationship. isit very difficult ? i'm i asking for more?
someone there for me, hug me sleep, feed me when i'm hungry?
care for me when i'm sick? give me a tight hug when quarrel ?
i know i'm a butch but still my heart is weak like a girl.
i also need someone to teng me. that's all i asked.
Useless-
felt so useless when i don't have any aim at all..
things won't go my way. what can i do in future?
Friends-
i have many friend with me.. but who's your true friend will stay with you and go through so many things with you?
i'm ain't a good friend.. i'm suck at being others people good friend..
still i know who is there for me and care about me. after all kind shit i've been through.
rough one.. someone can just cry with me for one hr plus? like non-stop hit teachno?
sometimes i just need a tight hug from my good friend.
Butch-
being a butch is not as easy as everyone see. is like..